Monday, July 18, 2011


Tony has been off now since Wednesday, so, it's been 5 days.  My husband and I were gone for the weekend, which made me uncomfortable, but... Tony convinced me to go, and I realized he had to do this alone.  I was in touch by text, and I think the weekend was kind of rough.  I won't go into all the gory details, but it sounded like the flu, and he had a couple bad nights.  So yesterday, he texted me how he was feeling and I suggested maybe things were improving.  He said he was on the downhill... so it sounds like the worst is over.

So, there he is now, no more safety net, exposed and naked.  I will see him in a couple of days.  It's scary... for me... I am feeling uneasy... hopeful... but very uneasy.

And something else... I was in touch with K... who left Tony alone one of those bad nights... she said he was acting so lethargic, and I suppose he was crabby too and not feeling well.  She said it reminded her of how he was when he was using, and she found it very difficult to be around him.  I felt bad about that, how much she has been hurt in all of this.  I love her, and I know Tony does too.

He did have some medication to help with the symptoms.  One of the drugs is a narcotic.  I'm not sure whose idea it was, but K was in charge of that one.  She decided the when and where and the dose and sounded like she kept it in her possession.  I'm guessing that he was only prescribed enough to get through these symptoms and then that's done too.

So, I have time off this week, and I do so want to drive to see him, check up on him.  He will be here in a couple of days, so I suppose I can wait.

1 comment:

  1. Momma - My son had a really hard time coming off the suboxone as well. He was on suboxone for about 2 months. The detox was based on a 21 day taper at the treatment center...but he really had a hard time. He was up all night for about a week, and had the same flu symptoms you describe. My thoughts are with you and him.