Tony is doing ok, I guess. His relationship with K seems on and off, truly, I don't know for sure what is going on right now. She graduated, and will be going to grad school next fall. What will happen between them I don't know, and have kind of stopped trying to figure it out.
Second semester is under way, he is taking a full class load and working weekends. He's still going to meetings and working the steps. He's done with his weekly After Care, so he doesn't come home Thursday nights anymore. I kind of miss that. We went to see him a couple of weeks ago to take him out for dinner and see how he was doing. The apartment was a pig stye but he seemed to be ok. It was all I could do not to start cleaning, but even he said, I am not responsible for that.
As far as me, I don't know... I think I have the winter blues, or something. Plus I am feeling a lot of pressure at work. I'm on a big project and am performing a pretty important role. At least it feels important, and I am scared to screw up, thus the stress. New role, new boss, big project, it adds up to tension headaches, not sleeping well, shoulder and neck pain. Add on a few age related health issues, and I am not sitting in a very good place.
How much do you think addiction has changed you? I mean has it changed the way you deal with life's difficulties? Right now, my sons are ok. Family is ok. So, why can't I relax? Why don't I feel better than this?